homeschooling...

I really felt when we began this adventure that i would be so good at it. I don't mean I was cocky, I just felt I would do well. I am creative, a pretty hard worker, persistent, level headed. But I guess it is just harder than I thought. Isn't that sad. I sound pathetic, I need to find a way to be better. I need to be consistent, kind, faithful, understanding, empathetic, sympathetic, peaceful, strong willed. I went on a trip with the girl scouts a few weeks ago and found a book called the Mother's Handbook. It is kicking me up one side and down the other! Basically the author reminds me of the need to show my children "love". You wouldn't think I would need to be reminded but as i get upset or frustrated about something I hear the small still voice say calm down it is just a... but rarely do I heed! After ward I apologize but I am tired of having to do that! I want to make the right decision the first time! I want my kids to learn all they need to learn but more than that I want them to become a Godly man and Godly women. I want and desire this above all else. i will do better!