this week has gone by incredibly fast. I cant believe it is Friday tommorow! We have had a full week... Tuesday was girl scouts and than a leader meeting that lasted two hours! usually at things like that i am literally chomping at the bit to get out of there but I didnt even realize that much time had gone by and we missed kaitlin's piano lesson! I could not believe it! I just love being in charge of things, I really need to work on my control issue. I dont always think it is a bad control issue because I usually dont have to "have it my way or the highway" it is more I want to make it as good, special, nice etc and think I can achieve that. I dont always think other people cant achieve it but I jsut know that I can. does that make sense? I love things to run well, I like for people to be pleased with what they came out of it with, I love for everyone to "get" something or feel something.
Wednesday we went to Spring to work on moms house... I painted and did all kinds of stuff- still trying not to feel "responsible" but it is hard. I am sending out info to my network of friends and if something isnt up to par than maybe when I do want to do something they will associate me with something not done well.
Thursday...gymnastics, school work, grocery store, school work, piano, Walmart, tennis lesson..... ahhhhh!
tommorow is our day at the MFAH, I am excited to go and do a class with the kids, we are taking out sketching notebooks and i am just so excited although I am tired and want to just stay home!
Gotta sleep or at least head that way!
Carrie in Texas
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Monday, March 24
Yesterday was Easter, I didnt even go to church. I am pretty sure this is only the second time in my whole life that I did not go to church on Easter Sunday. It felt weird and strange. I have had an overwhelming feeling at the church we are currently attending and was sure Easter Sunday would be exceptionally crowded and overwhelming and I just couldnt do it. I knew the kids classes would be extra large and Emily barely stays as it is! I woke up and explained to the kids why we werent going, we did a devotion together and went over again why this day is celebrated... we have been studying on it a few days in bible time. Than we did something really strange! We went to a 10:30 showing of Horton Hears a Who!!!!! We were supposed to go Saturday night but had gotten in an accident on 59S so since we had already told the kids they were going this weekend so we went. It sure cost us a whole lot less!
Anyway, I feel like I should feel terribly guilty but yet I don't. I celebrate what Jesus did for me everyday.
On to less weird thougts and confessions...
my brother in laws grandmother passed on Friday. It is very sad but she was 96 and lived one of the fullest lives I know! She did not suffer or linger, she went quickly and quietly. She was such a wonderful lady... I realized that I have known her for over 12 years! That is a long time...my life is feels like it is moving very fast.
I have come to a conclusion in the past few days, going back to the coversation I had about boundaries... I really need to read the book! I need to except that while I can give people advice ( when they ask) and I can offer to help (when asked) but after that I am not responsible for what they do. I know, wow, what a concept. I am not responsible for how another person's life turns out! I am responsible for me, my family, my children! I have so many good ideas and people might occasionally want to hear them, but if I give them I am not the one who has to make the idea come to fruitation ( is that that right phrase)! I am praying that God keeps that in the front of my mind all day, every day!
Carrie in Texas
Yesterday was Easter, I didnt even go to church. I am pretty sure this is only the second time in my whole life that I did not go to church on Easter Sunday. It felt weird and strange. I have had an overwhelming feeling at the church we are currently attending and was sure Easter Sunday would be exceptionally crowded and overwhelming and I just couldnt do it. I knew the kids classes would be extra large and Emily barely stays as it is! I woke up and explained to the kids why we werent going, we did a devotion together and went over again why this day is celebrated... we have been studying on it a few days in bible time. Than we did something really strange! We went to a 10:30 showing of Horton Hears a Who!!!!! We were supposed to go Saturday night but had gotten in an accident on 59S so since we had already told the kids they were going this weekend so we went. It sure cost us a whole lot less!
Anyway, I feel like I should feel terribly guilty but yet I don't. I celebrate what Jesus did for me everyday.
On to less weird thougts and confessions...
my brother in laws grandmother passed on Friday. It is very sad but she was 96 and lived one of the fullest lives I know! She did not suffer or linger, she went quickly and quietly. She was such a wonderful lady... I realized that I have known her for over 12 years! That is a long time...my life is feels like it is moving very fast.
I have come to a conclusion in the past few days, going back to the coversation I had about boundaries... I really need to read the book! I need to except that while I can give people advice ( when they ask) and I can offer to help (when asked) but after that I am not responsible for what they do. I know, wow, what a concept. I am not responsible for how another person's life turns out! I am responsible for me, my family, my children! I have so many good ideas and people might occasionally want to hear them, but if I give them I am not the one who has to make the idea come to fruitation ( is that that right phrase)! I am praying that God keeps that in the front of my mind all day, every day!
Carrie in Texas
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Post Number 3
I got an email from a friend who had started a blog and seriously it reminded me that I have one! You cannot believe how serious I am! So here I am 6 plus months later adding to my "daily" blog! Well to catch up... organization is pretty much out the window and I have actually used very little of my system. The Girl Scout Troop is great, I have actually graduated to Daisy leader so that is something else on my list! I do really like it though...it might have something to do with my control issues though! Awanas is good and I just ordered a at home devotinal form the Awana website it looks really neat. The year has gone really fast so far, to recap on the end of last year we went to DisneyWorld- I cant begin to tell you how much I enjoyed it, every minute of it! I cant wait to go back again but have so many other places on my list of "places to see..." that it will be awhile! Christmas was great, not the best Chirstmas ever but good, I truly want next year to just be calm and vow to go away to a hotel to get my way!
Dave is enjoying his job, which has changed some since we last chatted. There are aspects he doesnt like as well but they are trying to work out the kinks. He got work car. I will have to post pictures of it for you to understand...
Sarah Jean is here... for those who dont know Sarah Jean is the daughter of my heart! She lived with Dave and I for a few years when she was young and I home schooled her. She has always held a very special place in my heart and we are glad to have her back home! She came in tow with a husband, Robbie and a daughter Emily Jean! Emily Jean calls me NANA. I love it! I am so excited to have them in our lives daily!!!
Okay my thoughts, now that we have caught up a little lets get back to my thoughts on things...
I have been having a hard time with boundaries lately. I know, I know read the book! I will get around to it! I feel like I have not said no enough or when I said yes I did not really lay down the law and my exact involvement so I have in a sense totally overbooked myself! I am right now sucking it up and doing what needs to be done! I usually work better that way- I am a person who usually does better the fuller the plate. I dont feel that way right now, I guess the word is overwhelmed. I not only have a full plate I feel like I have a few plates stacked to high! I need to let something go but what will it be...
my mom has started a business and I am very happy for her. She rented a house in Old Town Spring and plans to have homeschooling classes and all kinds of different activities. It is right up my alley as far as things I like to do and the only problem is that it is well over 45 minutes away! I have to decide how involved I will be, in one hand if I go and do classe, which my kids will attend, I can base a lot on them on things my kids need and that is a bonus. On the other hand it is far away, i have responsibilities here and need to get Sarah Jean back and forth to work in odd hours and have Emily Jean when either one of them or working. I actually love having her but I am concerned about making plans and not being able to do it all. I cant pick Sarah up if I am in Spring... vice versa. I am hoping to work it out but we will see how things progress. It is not about keeping Emily Jean, she is such a wonderful easy baby, it boils down to me being unable to be in two places at once... anyone got a pill for that!
The kids are being a handful right now, it seems to go in phases and this is one of those phases, there are lots of things going on and difference so some of their behaviour can be attributed to that but also it just seems to be something they do! It is hard, we are having lots of talks- trying to be creative with punishments and having more severe punishments to make a point. For instance Kate and Matt lost movies and computer for an entire week! We have never taken away anything for a week yet. We will see if it makes any difference at all.
We stated doing a study of the fruits of the spirit, I told one of my friends that I have hemmed and hawed over starting this because I see so little fruit coming from myself lately that I haveing a hard time teaching about it! Does that make sense???
Okay, enough for now.. Hopefully it will not be another 6 months!
Carrie in Texas
Dave is enjoying his job, which has changed some since we last chatted. There are aspects he doesnt like as well but they are trying to work out the kinks. He got work car. I will have to post pictures of it for you to understand...
Sarah Jean is here... for those who dont know Sarah Jean is the daughter of my heart! She lived with Dave and I for a few years when she was young and I home schooled her. She has always held a very special place in my heart and we are glad to have her back home! She came in tow with a husband, Robbie and a daughter Emily Jean! Emily Jean calls me NANA. I love it! I am so excited to have them in our lives daily!!!
Okay my thoughts, now that we have caught up a little lets get back to my thoughts on things...
I have been having a hard time with boundaries lately. I know, I know read the book! I will get around to it! I feel like I have not said no enough or when I said yes I did not really lay down the law and my exact involvement so I have in a sense totally overbooked myself! I am right now sucking it up and doing what needs to be done! I usually work better that way- I am a person who usually does better the fuller the plate. I dont feel that way right now, I guess the word is overwhelmed. I not only have a full plate I feel like I have a few plates stacked to high! I need to let something go but what will it be...
my mom has started a business and I am very happy for her. She rented a house in Old Town Spring and plans to have homeschooling classes and all kinds of different activities. It is right up my alley as far as things I like to do and the only problem is that it is well over 45 minutes away! I have to decide how involved I will be, in one hand if I go and do classe, which my kids will attend, I can base a lot on them on things my kids need and that is a bonus. On the other hand it is far away, i have responsibilities here and need to get Sarah Jean back and forth to work in odd hours and have Emily Jean when either one of them or working. I actually love having her but I am concerned about making plans and not being able to do it all. I cant pick Sarah up if I am in Spring... vice versa. I am hoping to work it out but we will see how things progress. It is not about keeping Emily Jean, she is such a wonderful easy baby, it boils down to me being unable to be in two places at once... anyone got a pill for that!
The kids are being a handful right now, it seems to go in phases and this is one of those phases, there are lots of things going on and difference so some of their behaviour can be attributed to that but also it just seems to be something they do! It is hard, we are having lots of talks- trying to be creative with punishments and having more severe punishments to make a point. For instance Kate and Matt lost movies and computer for an entire week! We have never taken away anything for a week yet. We will see if it makes any difference at all.
We stated doing a study of the fruits of the spirit, I told one of my friends that I have hemmed and hawed over starting this because I see so little fruit coming from myself lately that I haveing a hard time teaching about it! Does that make sense???
Okay, enough for now.. Hopefully it will not be another 6 months!
Carrie in Texas
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